Out Loud

Should I say it. Should I just tell You? If I tell You then does that mean I'm committed to living it out. Does it mean now I have to do it because I told You I would. If I say it it means I have to do what I say I'm going to do, right. And will it increase my bravery to just do it by saying it here to You. To be precise about my intentions. And if I say it does it mean I am locked into really making something happen that will make everything different for me and everyone around me. Do I have the courage to make a stand like that. Am I creative enough to see it through. Do I have the guts to say it and if I say it here will You, the Universe, have a better chance of seeing it if You read it while You are looking in my mind and feeling my heart skip a beat and then flutter everytime I think of doing what I'm thinking about doing. Will I be blessed, will doors open, will a light shine in my path pointing me in the direction I am meant to take into the unknown. Out of the dark woods, out of the abyss, out of the winter of my discontent, leaving it all behind, GoingWestYoungWoMan, into the desert for 40 days and 40 nights... checking myself out in my mind's eye with longing, seeing me hanging out in a little cafe in the Santan Mountains, in a prairie skirt and dusty brown boots, shooting pool after work, and the eternal sun going down behind the buttes, sky is blue and pink and red after another beautiful day.

Does it make it real,
does it make it happen,
do I have to say yes now to
an open agreement with God
to change my life
when I say it out loud?