I had a revelation this morning! I'm a much better person the week my period starts :)
I eat better, I sleep better, I make better choices about what I say and do. I'm overall just more agreeable and nicer. I even look prettier. It's so weird! Not that I didn't realize it before, but it really impacted me this morning that life would be oh so much easier for me and my loved ones and the people around me if I went into a quiet, private place the week before my period.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of these women who dread my period or have terrible cramps or bleeding or all those kinds of symptoms, and I love, LOVE, the pre-period stuff of being more creative and much more in tune with the energy around me (this is when most of the synchronicities that I tell you about happen), but my energy level is low and I'm more tired, I'm testy and terse and I say things I probably normally would reconsider and be more mindful about. It's a strange Catch-22... And some days, a lot of times, I get so saddened to think that one day I'll no longer have the cycle in my life. I've loved this part of my life even though sometimes it makes things difficult.
Well, I ran last night with Lea. It was great fun and she is such a good runner. She gets side stitches and I showed her how to breathe and stretch to relieve them. She really listens to me when I advise. She does normally, that's never been a problem, but I didn't expect to get so much of it while coaching her running. But she trusts me and that's good.
The other night she lied to me for the first time. I asked her something about something Steven had said to me. He told me that she told him that I said he couldn't play a certain game anymore (I didn't). And I became a little hot under the collar about it. She heard me respond to him and somewhat angrily, "I never said that and I'm getting a little SICK of Lea trying to control you." it wasn't the first time that day that I'd lost my temper with her and she is pretty sensitive to it.
Well, I called her down and I was pretty confrontational when I said, "Lea, why did you tell Steven that I said that?" And she was silent for a moment and then she said, "I didn't."
I took a mental step back from all of it, and just said to her, "Ok, well, just to let you and Steven know: At this point in time, he can still play that game."
(I'm sure she wanted him to stop playing it to come and play dolls or some non-media type thing with her. And it's probably a good idea and I've since decided to limit the amount of time he is spending with video games before it becomes too much of a habit)
Anyhow, I went into the kitchen and I said to Royce, "She just lied to me. This is the first time."
He said, "Do you want me to talk to her?" And I was like, "No, it's ok..." And then I said, "You know, I don't want this to be a home where anyone feels like they need to lie to be safe. People lie because they are afraid. No, I don't think she needs to be spoken to about it; I think I need to be more careful about what I'm doing and how I'm reacting so she doesn't feel the need to lie again." I never want my children to feel they are back into a corner with no choices, you know? I think that comes from creating around them a world that a child feels they can trust.
Ok, I'm off to try my hand at yoga again. It seems that this time of year is a good time to start stretching out of the old and into the new.
I eat better, I sleep better, I make better choices about what I say and do. I'm overall just more agreeable and nicer. I even look prettier. It's so weird! Not that I didn't realize it before, but it really impacted me this morning that life would be oh so much easier for me and my loved ones and the people around me if I went into a quiet, private place the week before my period.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not one of these women who dread my period or have terrible cramps or bleeding or all those kinds of symptoms, and I love, LOVE, the pre-period stuff of being more creative and much more in tune with the energy around me (this is when most of the synchronicities that I tell you about happen), but my energy level is low and I'm more tired, I'm testy and terse and I say things I probably normally would reconsider and be more mindful about. It's a strange Catch-22... And some days, a lot of times, I get so saddened to think that one day I'll no longer have the cycle in my life. I've loved this part of my life even though sometimes it makes things difficult.
Well, I ran last night with Lea. It was great fun and she is such a good runner. She gets side stitches and I showed her how to breathe and stretch to relieve them. She really listens to me when I advise. She does normally, that's never been a problem, but I didn't expect to get so much of it while coaching her running. But she trusts me and that's good.
The other night she lied to me for the first time. I asked her something about something Steven had said to me. He told me that she told him that I said he couldn't play a certain game anymore (I didn't). And I became a little hot under the collar about it. She heard me respond to him and somewhat angrily, "I never said that and I'm getting a little SICK of Lea trying to control you." it wasn't the first time that day that I'd lost my temper with her and she is pretty sensitive to it.
Well, I called her down and I was pretty confrontational when I said, "Lea, why did you tell Steven that I said that?" And she was silent for a moment and then she said, "I didn't."
I took a mental step back from all of it, and just said to her, "Ok, well, just to let you and Steven know: At this point in time, he can still play that game."
(I'm sure she wanted him to stop playing it to come and play dolls or some non-media type thing with her. And it's probably a good idea and I've since decided to limit the amount of time he is spending with video games before it becomes too much of a habit)
Anyhow, I went into the kitchen and I said to Royce, "She just lied to me. This is the first time."
He said, "Do you want me to talk to her?" And I was like, "No, it's ok..." And then I said, "You know, I don't want this to be a home where anyone feels like they need to lie to be safe. People lie because they are afraid. No, I don't think she needs to be spoken to about it; I think I need to be more careful about what I'm doing and how I'm reacting so she doesn't feel the need to lie again." I never want my children to feel they are back into a corner with no choices, you know? I think that comes from creating around them a world that a child feels they can trust.
Ok, I'm off to try my hand at yoga again. It seems that this time of year is a good time to start stretching out of the old and into the new.
posted by SPOA | 6:44 AM
1 Comments:
Yes, it's spoken in silence. Relaxed and open, like you said. I wanted to let you know, but only after some hesitation. I didn't mean to break your private tranquility.
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