Written to an acquaintance, decided to keep it here....
I still have a few sweet memories of the engulfment of it, it was like total abandon for a short time,..until it wasn't anymore, and then it was just sad and very hard. After while, I was just miserable in the feeling state that held me captive.
Here is where I remember now to keep it in perspective, to keep my finger closer to the button of being conscious instead of sliding too eagerly into unconscious furloughs from reality. I've found lately that reality holds a deeper joy that is immensely satisfying now ....
I still have a few sweet memories of the engulfment of it, it was like total abandon for a short time,..until it wasn't anymore, and then it was just sad and very hard. After while, I was just miserable in the feeling state that held me captive.
Here is where I remember now to keep it in perspective, to keep my finger closer to the button of being conscious instead of sliding too eagerly into unconscious furloughs from reality. I've found lately that reality holds a deeper joy that is immensely satisfying now ....
posted by SPOA | 7:02 AM
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I've found that these either/or deals are always disappointing; we need both dreams and reality in our lives. I'm trying for some kind of balance myself, but it's not easy at all. I'll let you know when I've found the solution. That's a promise.
I really think it is what it is... I remember when I was younger and my mother was appalled at my sister (not Cindy :)) who would take her son's little hand to touch the lights on the Christmas tree first off when she arrived (these are the days when bulbs were hot), so he wouldn't mess with them. It took care of it right away, knowing they were hot, he left them alone and the curiosity of them was assauged.
My curiosity is still there, just tempered a bit from being burned and also risking pain to my loved ones.
For me it wasn't about finding a solution but more about finding an equilibrium by understanding what it is that draws me to hot lights (Jungian mumbo..), and also, remembering how much they hurt. It's about choice, I guess.
It seems that I was an unbeliever at an early age, since my mother tells me that I tried it myself with a hot stove, apparently to check if her warning was justified. :)
I don't think that what Jung said was mumbo (although there seem to be quiet a few folks around who like to turn it into that), and when I spoke about a "solution" I meant a way to find a balance, of course.
The choice that we have is to accept what we encounter in life or to ignore it, but our decision will not change the reality of it. The unconscious won't go away when we decide not to notice it; it may lead us into the flame while we're looking the other way and that's when we get burned.
So what I think is that we have to be aware of both our dreams and what we call reality, because both exist. If we don't, one the two will take over and bring unhappiness, also to our loved ones. Dreams are real too, or we wouldn't have them.
Maybe you meant that, I can't tell. It looks sad somehow.
It seems that I was an unbeliever at an early age. My mother tells me that I tried it myself with a hot stove when I was two years old, apparently to check if her warning was justified. :)
I don't think that what Jung said was mumbo (although there are plenty of folks around who like to turn it into that), and when I spoke about a "solution" I meant a way to find a balance, probably the same equilibrium that you mentioned. I’ve found that it’s not easy; I suck at that kind of thing. But I’ve not given up hope and I may yet get better at it.
The choice that I see is to accept what I encounter in my life or to ignore it, but my decision will not change the reality of what I run into. The unconscious won't go away when I decide not to notice it; it may lead me into the flame while I’m looking the other way and that's when I get burned. This is what I learned from Jung. I don’t believe that it’s mumbo, although there seem to be plenty of folks around who like to turn it into that. I’ve also noticed that even mumbo can look attractive to me when I’ve been too caught up in day to day stuff for too long. There’s probably a danger in that.
So what I think is that we have to be aware of both our dreams and what we call reality, because dreams are real too - otherwise we wouldn’t have them. If we don't, one of the two will take over and bring unhappiness, also to those who we love and who love us. But a dream is, of course, always a dream (not “just” a dream though, as far as I can see), and not always meant to be lived out literally, although some dreams come true in ways that we can’t foresee.
I just read your comment and the post again and it seems that I misunderstood you. I also didn’t mean to get all preachy; it was supposed to be a credo, not a sermon. So I just rephrased this and to post it again. Maybe you could delete my other comment – unless you like it better, in which case you could delete this one. Or both if you like neither. Sometimes it seems that we have unlimited choices. It also gave me an opportunity to get rid of a few typos, but I’m sure that some new ones crept in :)
Damn - I forgot to delete a sentence and now it's there twice
I give up. It's just not my day for commenting.
I really have no idea whre you are going with your thoughts on this. Not that I wouldn't mind following, not at all. I find that anything you have to say about consciousness is welcomed. But what the fuck are you saying??lol
Calling Jung speak "mumbo" is just calling it something, I meant no disregard to Jungian jibber-jabber, yadda, yakety smakety, blah-blah. Ofcourse you know this (I think You know this...).
The man has my eternal gratitude no matter what his yappin, yip yap, prattly yammer, bric-a-bracally babbling chatter is called.
Ok all kidding aside :).
AAA-Hem.
I don't think of dreams as the opposite of reality. I'm not sure what you mean about this.
And while I think that reality is going to be perception, yes. And a perception based on present understanding. I do think, however, there are very often right choices to be made based on presence of mind, and a maturing consciousness. It feels like a responsibility to me.
Ok like if I land smack dab in a middle of a town I don't know, then I will go all over the place to find my way out of it, right? Wrong turns, dead-ends, north instead of south, circles over and under back and forth, this way and that.
But once I get outta there and I go back, I'm gonna know my way around a little better. And even better now that I have a map (from people like Jung :)). My choices are going to be better informed and not only that I am going to be participating more consciously while finding my way around.
And I may even say to myself, "Oh shit, I've been here before and I got everything I needed back then. And then some. O.k. I'm outta here..."
This is more or less what I'm talking about in the original post.
Yeah, I know, I misunderstood. Been multitasking, sorry bout that. Shall I post it a few times more?
Just once :)
(and you should compliment my analogy while you're at it :))
Ok the analogy is great. I'm not re-posting anything. It's embarassing enough as it is. You can read it twice if you want to :)
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