January

I used to get sort of depressed this time of year because it is generally cold and overcast, we get a lot of lake effects this time of year, so the sun comes out only once in a while. But even that is not very hopeful because of the way it reflects off the atmosphere it is painfully bright.

But, I have come to have an apprection for this month as it is long and dark and dull. But I s'pose I can appreciate that it's a time of decompression, of reprieve and even a gestation...

And a time to get really fat if you're not careful. I'm not working out anymore so I have had to cut my calorie intake about a 1/3, and no longer have pasta and bread as a quick energy source and I haven't really gotten used to it yet. I am still so freaking hungry. It'll take some time for my metabolism to understand what's going on. I'm actually down about 10 lbs because of the predominantly protein meal plan I have myself on, but one thing I have noticed is while I am really hungry, there is a significant change in libido. And while I am happier than I've been in months and months, I'm just not very danged randy.

I'm spending time trying to understand the psychological dynamic of it and I am bamboozled. I know that food and sex are closely related since they are root drives, and often if we are oversexing, we are undereating and vice versa. (Vice versa is an odd latin euphemism isn't it? I wonder why we hold on to certain old pieces of language...)

But anyhoo, since it is snowing to beat the band and cold as shit and I don't have to be anywhere today I think today is a good day to figure this out ~Starting with reading some delicious sapphic erotica and putting together a beautiful fruit salad....